Helpless and Angry

I feel old when i think about the future of my two children. Yet one thing makes me feel older, that is, when with each passing day, dear friends depart one after another.

News of demise of old friends strike you deep and the anguish you feel is inexplanable. You feel a sense of helplessness because there is nothing you could do to avert it. Also you feel betrayed that the Almighty has to take away all the people that you ever cared for, one after another. Today, i realised, i still have not found the answer as to why i should lose the people i loved and cared for as a brother or as a friend more, than the others. When you undergo such a trauma you ask yourself if you are at fault sometimes, that is how much we care for them, we are ready to shoulder the blame, even for their early demise.

i lost a good friend recently and i know the emptiness i feel inside today. And for all the moments in the future when i will be reminded of the friendship that i cherished so much.

Rest in Peace my dear friend.... i only wished you had some more moments, days or weeks because you were young.................much too young to go!!!